Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Living in a land of unhealthy make believe..

So, I think that I have realized that I have been living in the land of make believe. I mean maybe as a little girl I watched too many Disney flicks. My whole idea of love and marriage I have realized is so unrealistic. Maybe thats the problem I have had in all my relationships I set a very high fairy tale standard. I think if its not happily ever after all the time its not working. The moment there is no romance or some people might call it the "NEW FOUND LOVE" I freak out and feel like it's not working anymore. I guess it's unfair for the guy because I am putting an expectation on him to fill. I guess I might expect him to be my night and shining armor at all times. Which is not very real or fair.

There are many different forms of love. But why is it the magic disappears??? But I have heard some people say " I love her/him the same as when I first meet her/him?" Can it actually be possible for people to have that same giddiness, that same "MAGIC," after years and years of being together? Or is that just a fairy tale or a blockbuster version of love?

Love is such a touchy subject. It's ever changing and shifting forms. There are so many people out there that take love for granted. They don't realize what kind of love they got.. or even what they are giving. I am so lost with this whole real LOVE issue. What exactly is it anymore??? I try to model and change the way I think about love by reading 1 Corinthians 13. But people don't really follow that definition now a days do they??? I guess no ones perfect. I'm still learning and still growing. Maybe someday I will have a full understanding of LOVE, and maybe my mind will get out of the make believe and into reality.

Well these are just a few of my mid-night rambles...

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