Perfect love!

So, I was reading 1 John chapter 4 last night because I felt that I need to go back to learning about Gods love and how to love others.  I find myself recognizing that I am confused about love because of my past.  I have been raised to look at love differently than most.  I guess you can say I have a warped view of love.  I don't know how to love the way Jesus has loved.  I get uncomfortable around men.. (I guess you can say that I feel every guy has bad intentions) I need to learn how to love other men and women as my brothers and sisters in Christ.  I need to start at the basics and learn God's perfect love and allow his love to transform my heart.  Let his perfect love melt away my past insecurities and teach me to love my neighbors as myself. 

I read through 1 John chapter 4 several times, and I woke up this morning with a bit more than when I fell asleep.

Listening to Magic Flute..

I am listening to The Magic Flute Act 1 on YouTube!  God Bless technology! I am able to watch some great opera over the internet for free.  Pretty awesome!  I am having so much more passion for opera.  My plan this semester is to start a listening project.  I am planning to listen to an opera a week and study the composer/lyricist during that week.  I am also going to listen to symphony orchestras more often.  Either it be on the radio/live or over the internet.  I have to be knowledgeable of my craft, of all the classics. 

So far The Magic Flute is great.  The vocalists have very powerful instruments and have substantial stage presence.  I am listening/watching a university production. But, it's better than I would of thought. 

Today, I have so much to do! But I woke up late. But, I will get it all done.  I have lots of homework and church at 5pm and D group dinner at 7pm.  

Adios off to work.

What's been going on..

So, I have not been writing much.. I have fallen off the horse of writing!  I decided it's about time I saddle back up and jump back on that.  

Update:  I am still attending Azusa Pacific University and studying Music. It is by gods grace and gifts that I am able to be at this school.  So I am very blessed and grateful.  School is ruff because I have so much to learn and catch up on.  I am basically starting from the bottom of musicianship and making my way up.  It's hard but I am pushing through and striving for excellence.  I still struggle with my insecurities and depression but I manage to pull through.  I believe I am saved through his love and grace.  That's what really pulls me through and gets me going when I am down.   

I am going to make a point of it to write more.  Let's hope I keep doing this!